OK, so maybe it's not so little. Especially not today when it is massive and screaming at me "YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!!!".
So why is it saying this to me?
For the past few days I have been competing in a radio competition called the 'Pop Quiz'. It's just 4 silly questions per day on celebrity news & gossip, sport and current events and stuff. There are 5 rounds and you win $50 each day but if you make it to day 5 you are going for $1000.
Well I made it to day 5 but completely bombed it. Was more upset than I expected to be and feel like a complete git. Just didn't know the answers and wasn't quick enough with google and the like to get me over the line.
Of course everyone else's reactions have been that I did so well to get to the 5th day but all I can focus on is the mistake I made. I stumbled on spelling the word PHARAOH and lost too much time thinking about it. I should have just passed it. Just can't seem to get past that. I have $200 that I didn't have before and I am only the second person this year to make to the $1000 round. I should be happy with that shouldn't I?
So why can't I turn off this stupid idiotic voice that tells me I am a failure? I don't like it and even trying to make it cound like Arnold Schwartznegger isn't working today. Grrrrr.
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